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Sunday, June 15, 2008

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 17:56:46 GMT

I just recently got done reading my weekly 'post secret' update..

every sunday i go and read the secrets...today were really interesting seeing they are the fathers day ones. I'm sitting here barely able to correctly type for some odd reason, nyla asleep on my bed, playing music and nearly tearing up at some of these postcards.

It finally clicked. I started to think of how wonderful and amazing and loving my father is. I read multi cards today mostly talking about having their father be proud of them. And then i remembered....the day i realized that no matter what i do, or what i become.. my father will always be proud of me.

Aunt sandy, uncle steve and my extreamly religious grandmother (who raised me and i will love untill the day i die) were in town..we were all upstairs, talking..watching tv. And they brought up the subject of tattoos and body piercings...before they came over i had asked my father if he wanted me to remove my facial piercings..he had told me no so i didnt. Anyways my aunt turns to me and asks if my star tattoos on my chest are real...my dad grabs me smiles and says of course they are! He then begins to show off the rest of my ink, the tattoo on my side, on my neck..and then (what seemed like he was proud) he told them that i was getting another tattoo soon prolly. *laughs* my dad seemed to be so proud of his mod loving little girl, and he wanted the whole church to know that he didnt mind..

thats the day i realized my father is one of the best men in the world. and i will always absolutely love him more than anything....

thanks dad.

happy fathers day!

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Sun, 11 May 2008 20:58:07 GMT

Things are getting better.

better than before thank god. Kristifer got married, id like to trade my old mike d pain in for this new mike d i cant stop thinking about.

Moneys coming in, Nylas getting big, and we are gonna get a house soon (i hope)

Happy Mothers Day

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 04:14:40 GMT

I'm 21 bitches!

Birthday GIfts

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 00:51:47 GMT

I just got my first set of early b day gifts...from the wonderful man, and my future husband chris..I LOVE YOU CHRIS!

Wish u were here to drink it with me! love you!

Friday, February 29, 2008

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 04:21:32 GMT

i miss you so much.

Things are getting hard, but i keep trying. You always told me to smile, So I will.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 19:57:02 GMT

this has been one of the most hardest/bonding/loving/tragic/depressing/lonesome week ive ever had.

ill miss you papa <3

Friday, February 08, 2008

Fri, 08 Feb 2008 23:08:10 GMT

Im jumping on a plane back to Cali either tonight or tomarrow.

grandpas in the hospitol and it doesnt look good.

Friday, February 08, 2008

Fri, 08 Feb 2008 04:34:11 GMT

so im back home in Texas, and everything feels great....but it doesnt feel like "home" anymore..im getting homesick for mom and dad!

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Sat, 02 Feb 2008 20:29:26 GMT

Birthday list:

yeah thats all.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 01:21:27 GMT

I need to update more so here i go:

Theres this thump in the back of my head. Its a lingering pain that WONT seem to go away..like someone drilling, ive grown numb to it. This whole "freedom" thing is lonely. Ive realized how much i miss my parents but its nice to drink and smoke whenever i feel the need to. And no permission to have boys in my bed..wonderfullness i swear. I love sundays with ashley, i think its going to be a common thing now. Sooooooo vegas...so wanting it on my 21st but kinda pointless, ill take vodka and a limo to LA :). i cant wait to go back home and see ol friends, its amazing how many i really did make when i was there just doesnt really feel like it. I want a random post of shit, so here we go:

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